Tian xia de ma ma dou shi yi yang de.
That day while waiting for evelyn to get changed, eve mum talked quite abit to us.
Haa tts also wad my mum alw tell me.
They said the same thing.
Mums like to brainwash the younger ones so that we are able to protect ourselves.
Girls especially.
They've seen the world more then us, experience more than us.
Ytd was my sis traffic police test.
Acc her throughout 1 lesson and 1 tp.
Though i cannt be beside her, i can be ard her to giv her my support.
A total of 4hrs at ubi driving centre alone:(
Happen to saw fabian taking his bike lesson.
I notice take up riding is such a torture.
under the blazing hot sun with a helmet suffocating them.
Beads and beads of sweat tricking.
All looking so shagged.
Brought sis to eat something gd to ease her fright frm her test.
If she were in a good mood, we would hav gone somewhr further to celebrate.
Had our dinner at hg mall xiao xuan feng, to hav our fav xiao long bao.
Hopefully that could console her.
And Durian was waiting for me at home.
Yeah its the durian season, i can happily eat my fill.
I think ytd my mood was totally opp from sis's.
What a busy day.
But happy with it coz im doing things.
Heard frm bonita tt wendy left the agency abruptly.
Without notice.
Juz last week i was talking to her and now she is gone.
Alot of things are unpredictable.
She told me she is gng to ***** but i nv knw it's so soon.
Well, wishing her all the best.
And i'll call her up someday to kaypo. heee...
Recieved a call frm jiayee tt day.
She was in sch and asked if im reaching.
I totally forgot abt it.
It was quite an impt sesion with our lecturer.
Damn it, how careless i am.
And bonita kept call me down for casting.
argh...
Need to learn to be more independent la.
Cannt keep relying on pp to remind me.
Life is not easy. It's not only about eating, drinking, sleeping.
Making life worth it, its really tough.
we must take the right way, do it right and ppl will respect you.
once pp respect you, you 've alr achieve alot.
pp will look up to you, trust you and admire you.
Treating pp the way how u like pp to treat you.
being filial to my parents and family.
This 22 yrs, hv i done it?
I also hven really achieve smth i really wannted.
til now, i stil don knw wad kind of future i want
i hav no particular interest, no ambition.
Does this consider a failure in life?
is it because ive nv been tru any hardship?
always living in my comfort zone?
its scary thinking of the future.
i'm so troubled, so troubled, so troubled.
ive tot of giving up my studies knwing tt i did badly in the exams.
shld i continue?
ive tot of what kind of person am i.
but all my ans is not a perfect ans.
now my main focus is to grow up.
i'm no longer a kid, i must really grow up.
i wan to live my life with no regrets.
Making myself valuable.
And if one day i die, pp will respect me and rmb may.
Clubbing, playing, shopping etc.
Does that do me any good?
Mayb once in a blue moon but not always.
thanks to bro and mummy who bring me up to face what i hav to face now.
Talked to me and share all their experiences with me.
naming all my weaknesses.
seriously, hearing it really saddens me.
i hope its not too late to realise.
nw, i'll take everyth one step at a time.
Aviod things tt will distract me.
i think its worth it coz i knw tt i'll be happy when i come to tt stage.
my life wun me wasted then.
"what is mine, eventually will be mine"(09,09,06)